About Me

 

I’ve been a keeper of YHUH’s Covenant since 2009. I’ve been studying the migrations of the Tribes of Israel and the Greater Exodus for several years.

It is my desire to learn with you, grow with you, and go Home with you.

 

My Testimony – Out of the darkness and into the Light

I’ve heard some people mention they haven’t seen many others testify as to how they came out of the lies of Christianity (and other false religions) and into the Truth of the Covenant that The Heavenly Father made with our forefathers, Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. I have been thinking the same thing, so I’ll start with my testimony.

It started when I was about 4 or 5 years old. I would walk out by the corn fields behind my grandpa’s house in Illinois and pray for hours. I prayed a lot when I was little. We moved to Tennessee when I was 8-years-old. One day while praying in my backyard, the Messiah and 2 angels came down. The clouds parted and I saw them up in the air as they floated down slowly, then they just stayed suspended in the air for a few minutes. I was very happy to see Him. After a few minutes he came down to see me. He grabbed my hand and slowly walked and talked with me in the back yard. I tried walking Him to my front door. I said, “I’m so happy You came, but before you go, I want you to meet my daddy.” He said, “I already know your daddy. I came to see you.” After that He said He had to go, and so He left.

I thought about His visit a lot over the next few years, even though I never really understood why He came to visit me. I thought it was just really special that He did.

Time passed on as my family and I lived our lives. We moved to Texas from Tennessee when I was 14. I got married when I was 20. I told my husband I wanted to go spend the night with my sister, just to hang out with her at her home. I slept in her extra bedroom. I went to bed, but I couldn’t sleep.

Then suddenly I was in this black tunnel. It looked like it went up to heaven. I saw a man with black hair, but I had a very bad feeling about him. I knew a few minutes later that it was Lucifer. His face was in the tunnel and he said, “If you close your eyes right now, you will never wake up again. You will have peace. Do you choose me?” All of a sudden my beloved Messiah’s face showed up in the tunnel. He didn’t say anything. I saw His smiling face and I could feel His love. I looked at Him and said, “I CHOOSE YOU!” At that moment, He took me, in the blink of an eye, up to heaven. He was sitting at the right side of the Father. There were some people on the right side of the Messiah, standing there. I was on the left side of the Father. It felt like a dark side, for some reason, I understood while I was there that I was on the goats side, even though in all reality, I had no idea what the goats side was.

I started looking around and was amazed at what I saw and was so very happy to be there. I saw a sea of angels singing and praising the Father. Under them looked to be like a sea of the most beautiful glass. I looked at the Father, but I looked away because I was afraid. I looked at the Messiah and smiled at Him.  I took a deep breath and looked at the Messiah again.  He smiled at me, still having that look of love on his face. I looked back at the Father and noticed that He had the whitest robe on that I’d ever seen – whiter than white, so white it was almost shiny. He had big feet and sandals on His feet. He had a staff in his right had, or a rod of some kind. Behind Him was a rainbow, clouds and a lot of things going on that was a blur to look at. I looked at His face and tried to see it, but I couldn’t. It was very blurred out, so I looked back at the Messiah. He was wearing a purple robe, the most beautiful color of purple I’ve ever seen. The Messiah reached around the front of the Father with His hand extended toward mine and said, “Follow me and you will be on my right side.” I grabbed his hand and said, “Ok, I will.” Immediately I began to walk to His right side. He pulled me out of the darkness and into the light on His side, but as I was walking toward Him, I was back in my sister’s bedroom.

Many years went by and I became a “Christian”. I went to different churches, different denominations, kept the “holidays” and all… None of it ever felt right. I knew something was wrong, but I didn’t know what. I prayed to know the Father’s Name and the Messiah’s name. I prayed that for years.

I went through much pain through my years. I won’t get into the things that happened to me, but they were traumatic. I quit going to church, but still prayed and was still thankful for all of the good things in my life…

One day , I heard a voice calling my name. I remembered the Scripture that talked about answering the voice, so I said, “Yes, here I am.” Nothing happened. I heard the voice again a week or so later. I said the same thing, “Yes, Father!  Here I am!” Again, nothing… Until a short time later. So, as I went dragging through the days, just going through the motions of life (I was so depressed), I thought I would just end the pain by walking on to the highway and letting traffic run over me. I walked toward the road and… that’s when my life changed forever.

I had the strong feeling to walk back home, so I did. I went into my apartment and fell on my face, crying very hard. I told the Heavenly Father that I know I don’t have His Truth and that I really desperately want to have it or there is nothing to live for. That’s when I felt His Ruach (Spirit) and everything changed.

I thought I needed to start reading the Scriptures again, and this time very slowly so that I can forget what I’ve been taught in Church and only learn the Truth. Being an ex-Christian, I decided to start in Matthew.

While reading through Matthew, I saw the commandments pop up here and there. I desired strongly to know what these commandments were. Then I saw, in the book of John, the part that said, “IF you love me, keep my commandments.” I knew the commandments were in the “Old Testament”, so I immediately went to Genesis and started reading there.  I came upon the 10 commandments in Exodus. I thought, well, these must be the commandments He was talking about. I had to adjust my life to the 10 commandments and start keeping Shabbat. After I kept Shabbat for a while and kept reading, I saw that the “feast days” (appointed times) are to be kept also, so I started keeping them the best I could, without really understanding how to keep them. As I read on further in the Scriptures, I saw that we are to keep His laws, statutes, ordinances, judgments, and precepts.

I didn’t keep the feast days right at all for the first few years because I had no idea how to keep them. I just knew I had to obey and I did the best I could. I have a much better idea of how to keep them now.

My first Passover, I had pork chops. Looking back, I know YHUH is so full of love, mercy, and forgiveness for our many mistakes and wrong choices. My second Passover I had boiled steaks. I had no idea what I was doing, but I tried as hard as I could. I’m so thankful for His forgiveness.

I’m older now, and He has had me on one amazing journey! It’s a lonely journey, but He comforts us and gives us His Perfect Shalom.

I haven’t seen the Messiah again, but I know I will soon.

I would  love to hear your story too. Feel free to add your story to the comments section below, so that we can all be encouraged of how our Heavenly Father changed our lives.

Shalom and love in Yehoshua HaMoshiach Emmanuel,

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